How Postpartum Depression Robbed Me of My Baby’s First Months

I never wanted a baby until I did.

Desperately. With basically every fiber of my being, the feeling just came over me one day – borne from a loneliness that I have never experienced before and haven’t experienced again.

I suddenly wanted a baby. From that moment on, I became a sputtering mess over baby names, diaper commercials, and anything and everything baby related.

I (wrongly) thought that a baby was going to fill a piece of me that had always been missing and would bring the ultimate happiness.